I am feeling stifled here, intermittently.
I yearn to have some interactions with other trans people.
But then I remember previous groups and social events and wonder if I actually do want that interaction….
Tag: trans man
Hey all,
Apologies (again) for the absence. Work is seriously kicking my ass, and I’ve also acquired a motorcycle so all my free time is split between riding and being with family.
Little K is not so little anymore – we moved closer to his school and he now rides his bike to and from off his own accord. His friend lives about a block away, so he’s been having a lot of fun and gaining independence. I try not to be a helicopter parent, but coming from a city it’s difficult to let go of preconceived notions of “danger”.
So, life is mainly work, chores, errands and family time with a little riding thrown in for headspace.
If you’re curious about something, send a message and I’ll answer as soon as possible.
Thanks for hanging in there everyone. Hopefully I’ll have a colleague soon enough so I won’t have to bust ass at work so much.
Not being disrespectful, but why do you say, “suffers from transsexualism” instead of just saying your transgender?
Because it is something that I personally suffer from. I consider my transsexualism a medical condition, and it causes me suffering.
Do you have any fears of being inadvertently outed by your young son?
Sometimes, and he’s almost done it once when he was much younger.
But not so much now, as he completely understands that it’s not a secret, just not anybody’s business other than he, his Mother and I.
We gave him a list of people it’s okay to speak to about the subject, which is a short list comprising of very close friends and family – to ensure he always feels like he has people other than us he can speak to about it.
But in general now, no – I don’t hold that fear very strongly.
So, our lives have been thrown into chaos lately due to having to unexpectedly vacate the rental we are living in.
Alongside this, we had to put our beloved family cat down two weeks ago and little K hasn’t been taking it very well. They slept together every night, and K was smitten with our cat.
We’re surviving though. Wife got a new job with more hours, and we’ve secured the new rental which is not only cheaper rent, but far more suited to our family than the current rental anyhow.
I’d say with the amount I’m working, alongside my Wife landing that new job – we’ll have enough saved for a deposit on our own little house in 12 months time.
Life is hectic, but our love surpasses anything.
I came across your post about whether or not you use a condom during sex with your FreeTom. Do you use latex condoms? Condoms that are pre-lubricated with silicone-based lubricants? On FreeTom’s site, it says that one should steer clear of latex condoms and those with silicone-based lubricants because it will “ruin the prosthetic.” Have you found this to be true? It is very hard to find non-latex, non-lubricated condoms haha.
Hi there.
I use latex based condoms that have water-based lubricant. That is completely safe for silicone toys – you want water based lube, not silicone – that will melt your shit really fast.
I have never heard of latex condoms with silicone lube, but if you can find condoms without lube just buy a small bottle of water based lubricant to go along with it.
So, all in all: latex condoms have been fine for me, just make sure they have WATER based lubricant, NOT silicone.
Impending Weekend.
Work has been so full on and stressful lately, I’m loving every second I am away from the office.
The weekend is creeping up, and we’re all going on a road trip to visit my parents, in particular my Mother – for Mother’s Day.
Mum’s really excited because both of my Sisters and thier kids and spouses will be there too – we’ll all be in the same state at the same time.
This post has been tricky to write, because I’m trying to leave out most details and make this a little less personal.
I’m excited to see K and his cousins play and interact – they’re all fairly similar in age, and K is super excited to see them.
I’m a little apprehensive with regards to my Sisters and I being in the same space for so long together. They’re good people, and we certainly get along but I do have quite a bit of old anxieties when I’m around my whole family at once.
It’s like, old memories of pre transition and they get stuck in my mind. I can’t really articulate it properly.
And for some reason they feel ownership over my history – they’ve outed me to random fucking people here and there, and when I pull them up on it and get angry they say stupid shit like “You can’t deny your past, you shouldn’t hide who you are!” and it makes me want to smash things. So I tend to avoid them a fair bit as a result.
Regardless, it will be a welcome distraction from thinking about work.
How much did top surgery roughly cost you?
I did not have any private health cover to aid me finanacially speaking, so all up I think it cost somewhere in the vicinity of $8,000AUD.
Here’s a link to information about my particular procedure, unfortunately it’s not related to cost though.
In the future when I have more time, I’ll try and do a breakdown of costs incurred.
Growing Up.
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I feel as though K has crossed some kind of threshold into pre-pubescence in
the last couple of months. It’s natural for my Wife and I to occasionally
remark about him looking “grow up” in certain attire, or when he’s just had a
fresh haircut, or when he uses a particularly complex word in the correct
context.
But this time it’s actually different. He actually is growing up – I
can without effort envisage him as a teenager. He’s always been taken with
music, but now he puts his iPod on his speaker, closes the door and sings at
the top of his lungs. The way he interacts with the world around him has
changed, not necessarily in any negative capacity but more so with a general
feeling of growth. It’s difficult to articulate.
Last weekend, my Wife and I took K on a roadtrip to a small quiet rural town
that had a “great” skate park, according to friends. K is super into riding his
scooter, and it’s kind of hysterical because I grew up obsessed with
skateboarding – scooter riders being an active enemy in my youth.
I digress – he and I had such a good time together, me skating and him on his
scooter. We had the park to ourselves for hours, my Wife and our family dog
were going on short walks, playing fetch and watching alternately. K and I were
cheering each other on, doing lines around the skate park following one
another. Afterwards we walked to the nearby café and bought some lunch to eat
in the park, and then K and I played on the play equipment.
Our car was parked back over near the skate park – our gear already in the boot
but when K lamented at the fact we were going home, and asked for another 15
minutes at the skate park – it didn’t take long for either of us to oblige.
I think we’re going again this Saturday.
Hi, I need a little bit of help and I thought that you would be the most knowledgeable. My mom and uncle are saying that my personality has changed since being on t, that I’ve become more agressive. How do I combat this?
Do you feel you have become more agressive on T?
I guess this is a difficult question to answer; personally I can attest to the change in senation of anger itself. It is far more easy to access nowdays comparatively speaking, but that’s not to say I can’t control it because I most certainly can.
I think how we experience emotions changes when starting HRT, but how you respond to your emotions doesn’t have to.
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