Tag: hrt

Lately, as in the last 24 hours, I’ve read a couple of accounts of people coming out in support of the trans child in their life. I think it’s great that the issue is getting publicity. However, as someone that chooses to live as stealth as possible I feel like it’s not necessarily fair for their families to out them when they are 5 or 6 years old. This is not something that I would want to show up should somebody choose to Google my name. What are your thoughts?

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I agree.

I often see these stories/television programs and forget that these kids will eventually grow up and most likely want to be stealth, or at the very least just live thier lives.
While I would love to have been able to access hormone replacement therapy, puberty blockers and therapy as early as some of these children have, I think that comes with a certain degree of publicity and a lot of “supporters” forget that media nowdays is permanent. Archives are so readily available online that years after a story is published, a simply keyword search will yeild many results.

Hi, I need a little bit of help and I thought that you would be the most knowledgeable. My mom and uncle are saying that my personality has changed since being on t, that I’ve become more agressive. How do I combat this?

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Do you feel you have become more agressive on T?

I guess this is a difficult question to answer; personally I can attest to the change in senation of anger itself. It is far more easy to access nowdays comparatively speaking, but that’s not to say I can’t control it because I most certainly can.

I think how we experience emotions changes when starting HRT, but how you respond to your emotions doesn’t have to.

How do you take T and have you tried other ways (eg injection, pellets…)?

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I currently inject 4ml of Reandron 1000 into my butt every 10 weeks. This is a slow release form of Testosterone, meaning that I don’t have to recieve an injection anywhere near as often as I used to while on Sustanon 250 – which was 1ml every 2 weeks.

I have thought about pellets, however right now Reandron is working fairly well for me. It was only the other day I was talking to my Wife about how I might like to see my current GP regarding other routes of administration, more specifically the pellets, because it’s something I do think about occasionally.

I have never used creams or gels, though. They’re not something I was ever really interested in trying.

this might be a bit of a weird and personal question to ask so i’ll ask off anon in case you’re uncomfortable doing it on anon, but i saw you’re post that youve been on T for ten years. now, my mom is unsupportive constantly trying to say that HRT doesn’t work etcetc but i want to hear how you feel about it. is life treating you well? are you really happy where you are? if you don’t wanna answer it’s fine since this is pretty personal.

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Sorry it’s taken me so long to respond, it’s not that I had any reservations with answering these questions – I just wanted to give them the attention they deserved. 

Is life treating me well? Yes. Very much so. In the past 12 months I have really felt like things are finally going how I’d like them to. I graduated, got a great job in my field, moved to the country and have for now at least “finished transitioning”. 

Am I really happy where I am? Yes. Very much so. That’s not to say I don’t battle with depression, anxiety and dysphoria – the former two not particularly related to transition, and have been long-standing conditions I’ve had to deal with since very early in life. Transition is a battle, and by no means easy – but I always reflect on the choice I made initially. That is, it was not a question of “if” I should begin HRT, but if I should continue to live. It really was that black and white, and I felt I had nothing to lose by going on Testosterone. 

I never thought I could be this happy, really. I have an absolutely amazing little family – again something I never thought I’d have. A Wife, a Son. We’re working towards buying our first home and although it may take a while – we actually have money in a designated savings account. I wake up each day knowing I am absolutely blessed, and cannot believe my gorgeous family would choose little ol’ me. 

A decade on Tesosterone.

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So I had my shot yesterday. I always put it off, but I’m getting better. Sort of.

It got me thinking about the process of taking testosterone and how that tends to play out for me emotionally speaking, as the years progress.

Sometime this year, I can’t remember exactly – June or so I believe, I will have injected testosterone into my body for 10 years. A decade. That’s a pretty intense thing to reflect upon, let alone live.

During the first few years, maybe the first 4 or 5, I did my own shots in my thigh. I was taught how to do it initially by my GP, and did the same thing, alternating sides every fortnight when my shot was due. As time went on, I began to resent the medicalisation of my life, the fact that I needed artificial testosterone as I was unable to produce my own. After five years of Testosterone shots in my thighs, I had scar tissue built up around the injection sites. I let my shots fall later and later, to the point where my Wife (fiancée at the time) asked if I would prefer she do it. I knew having regular shots was integral to my mental wellbeing and physical health, but I was my own barrier. I was thankful for her help.

I am now on a kind of testosterone called Reandron. This is a large dose of testosterone of the slow release variety, meaning I now get shots once every ten weeks. This has severely reduced my resentment toward the shots themselves, and although it’s large volume-wise (4ml as compared to 1ml injection) the benefits outweigh the slight tenderness of an injection site for a few hours. If it wasn’t for Reandron, I’d be late with my shots consistently, and that’s something I don’t want – it fucks with my hormones and my head.

I have just completed gender therapy and am about to begin my testosterone treatments. Can you share your experiences with just starting hormone therapy? What can I expect in the near future?

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To be brutally honest I don’t remember all the nuances and important details of starting HRT, but I’d hope very much that if you’re undergoing that process your treating Doctor would have informed you exactly of what to expect, and a brief timeline of such events.

Basically: dick growth, sensitivity, hair growth, voice breaking, pimples, sweat, hungry, horny. You’re going to go through puberty, man. And all that comes along with it.

Happens at different stages for different folks, as hormones react individually with your body as opposed to someone else’s.

Are you worried about your trans status becoming known in such a small town?

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In short, yes. But I’m concerned about my trans status being common knowledge wherever I am.

Here, I have some family. They’re very prominent members of this community and well respected due to business relations and town social standings. This is useful in the fact that if shit ever does hit the fan; they’ll be on my side fighting for me.

I almost feel as though things are so simple here, people are so straight forward that at times it feels less likely for anyone to ever out me due to the fact that trans people are invisible here. There is no knowledge about trans issues. I’m not even sure if people here would know it’s possible to transition from female to male.

Perhaps I’m not giving the town folk enough credit, but here I am seen as a short, odd little “alternative” man with a Wife and Son. Nothing more. The only reason people give me and my family a second look in this town is because we haven’t altered our dress sense to fit in – we appear more “city” than “country”. 

Hi, I am a transsexual male and I have been going to therapy for the past few months now. Hopefully within the next few months, I will be able to start testosterone. However, while I am happy that I get to see myself grow into the man that I should have been, there are been bouts of nervousness and doubt that I have been dealing with. I am not sure if it’s normal or not. Most of my nervousness and doubt is the fear of my future. Fear of the unknown. Are these fears and doubts normal? (cont…)

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(cont…) I mean, I honestly can’t see myself living the rest of my life as a woman. Not because of gender roles or how I dress, but because I literally feel like I should’ve been born male. I should have a flat chest and a penis. As a future parent, I see myself as father, not a mother. He and him. But as I said earlier, I have just been have a lot bouts of nervousness and fears. Even anxiety. I don’t know what to do. I am at a loss here. Are these fears also fear of regret?

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I commend you for your thoroughness regarding therapy and the like, well done. I can’t speak for everyone but from my experience it is certainly “normal” to doubt yourself/transition. I would be more concerned if you had no doubts, to be blatant.
Transitioning is an exceptionally large process to undergo, and should not be taken lightly – you seem to have a good grasp of this and that’s great.

Fear of the unknown is one thing humans are fantastic at. It’s also a really valid fear – it’s scary not knowing what to expect/what will eventuate from decisions you make.

You mentioned you can’t see yourself as a Woman, and wish to be a Father. These are all things you need to reflect upon when feeling doubtful.

But you also need to remember that self doubt in small amounts is healthy, it’s a critical way of looking at things and serves a purpose.

Did you grow taller when you transitioned? Did your hands and feet get any bigger either? Just something I’ve always been curious about.

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Unfortunately I did not.
I medically transitioned when I was legally able to, at 18 years old – as my parents were not willing to be supportive with regards to the medical side of things.

I have always had a short stature, especially when comparing my height to the rest of my family – but unfortunately I had finished all the growing I was able to do prior to the introduction of T.

Growth plates are fickle things; if you begin medical transition early enough (or before your growth plates fuse) you may be able to benefit from some height growth, alongside other body parts.

I think perhaps my feet grew half a size, but I can’t be exactly sure because I never really bothered to find out my actual foot size to begin with. Other people I have know that are on T have reported an increase in foot size, however – so it’s not totally impossible.

As far as hand size goes; same deal, I didn’t experience any change. I am relatively happy with the overall size of my hands, just wish my fingers weren’t to thin, long and bony – purchasing a wedding band was an absolute nightmare. I had to get a men’s ring sized down to a very small size.

If anyone else has any experiences, feel free to chip in?